Dreams and Things

The Interferon is beginning to take a toll on me emotionally. The listed side effects are depression and irritability. As I write this on Wednesday morning the fourteenth of December I am recovering from what has hitherto been the worst rage of my treatment. It occurred yesterday and became so intense I was unable to think clearly. It started obnoxiously enough. I decided to read my wife's CD's into iTunes. This was part of a project I set out for myself to rebuild my iTunes library which is missing several albums. I got about half way and in doing so discovered that there were many in the box that were unreadable. I tossed these into the garbage as I proceeded. Otherwise I kept plowing through her CD collection until I had almost reached half of them. I mentioned to her that several of the CD's were unreadable  and that I had subsequently tossed them. She became very worried that I was throwing away some CD's she was saving, including an autographed one. I hadn...

It's Thursday 12/1/11 and I have recovered from a depression. I woke up yesterday feeling more or less OK. But as the day progressed I began to feel more depressed. I didn't recognize it at first. I almost never get depressed for any reason. But a sense of despair and lethargy slowly settled upon me as the day progressed. My day started out in a mundane way as usual. I woke up and shaved and showered. I went to therapy at 11:00AM as usual. I was unusually groggy. I think I may have taken too much sleep medication the night before. I felt like I was dragging my feet but my wife and I managed to get into the car early to drive me to therapy. Psychoanalysis was pretty boring, I guess. I spent the entire time talking about the effects of the Interferon and in particular how it had affected me the previous Monday. My wife tends to approach my struggles with a "can do" attitude. In other words, what can we do at the moment to solve the problem at hand. She doesn't...